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today I got a LOT of stuff done! Like filling out me work release form and getting my summer reading packet so I can take honors english iii next year. We also went to the library today, which was fun! I actually got a book on how to deal with being sexually abused...idk most of the time it feels like it hasn't set in that I have a label for my pain, and then other times it just feels overwhelming yet normal pain i have been holding off for years :/ i really don't understand it..i guess I'm just a fish who doesn't realize it is out of water...